IN THE BLOOM OF YOUTH
Spring is here. Moods are changing. But I feel more like a blooming idiot than a blooming flower. There’s something that weighs heavily on my mind. It’s something that’s been bothering me for a while now. I know I’m not alone and some of you can connect. Let’s face it. We all have that one big dream that we want to pursue. We all want to shine. And here I am not being able to escape the feeling that something is stopping me from being given complete expression. I worked hard to be where I am now. I sacrificed a lot and still – there’s more to explore. More to achieve. More to experience. “If your dreams don’t scare you they are not big enough.” I loved that quote ever since I’ve found it. Like a lot of people in this generation I am willing to work hard and to make my best effort to be where I want to be some day. Right now I am just asking myself if there is a point where I have to realize that dreams are actually too big so they will scare me off forever. Our generation is not willing to give up, but we are exasperated by the fact that this hard work will not pay off because of other circumstances, ‘higher powers’ and people, holding the reins of power to make this all happen. What we need and what we ask for in exchange of our weary journey is just a little chance to prove ourselves. Instead, we meet your obstinate opposition. Give us the chance to shine. Give us the chance to find ourselves and give us the chance to be in the full bloom of youth. Complaining about us young people and our habits and behavior is not motivating us at all. What you are doing at the moment is sucking us all dry. Rescue us from this strength-sapping journey. If you have the power to boost our skills, personalities and our identification stage, then give us the chance to prepare ourselves for what we have worked so hard. Don’t be part of that higher power that makes us fall into a sort of limbo. At some point all the hopelessness will just scare us away from following our dream. A big dream composed of many little dreams of being stable, establishing ourselves and provide the next generation what you refuse to give us at the moment.
Photo: Marie Louise Faderan
Inspired by collages of R. Montoya